I AM UNLOVED.

My mother. She doesn't treat me..No well, not exactly mistreat but just not right. Why can't parents just be fair? If I rule the world, I'll punish any parent that shows unfairness to any of their own children. But then again, life for some was destined to be unfair, hmm yeah? For me, yes very actually.
Sure my dad, of course its easy to tell, find favour in me. But so what - did I ask for it? I didn't exactly have any option right. Yeah sure thats all very well for me but its being unfair to the rest of my siblings; I enjoy such treatment but no I don't like it still. I'd like if both my dad and mum were totally equal to all of us and not showing such obvious favouritism.
I was so fucking envious of how my sister and mother were laughing away just now. Its not me I'm positive. Her tone to me, and to my siblings... its pretty much obvious actually. Not that she doesn't love me, I know I know, but its uncomparable to theirs. Its as though its more of a duty as a parent to love me rather than the compassion. I actually don't blame anyone, though it would be great if it could be my parents. God maybe. Afterall He created all of us and the entire world of unfairness. Doubts doubts doubts! Driving me bonkers, I'm losing my faith in Him. Now that, God just had to create doubts too.

I wish life was way fairer but everything just doesn't go my way.

Why am I even bothering - I've been living it for thirteen years, and I'm still alive aren't I? Don't worry, my future children HAHAHA I'm not gonna be so sadistic to even treat one of them better than the other, like what I'm expriencing right now.